We had a dinner auction to go to and I was wondering what to wear. I thought it would be a good chance to wear my 'mother of the bride' dress again. I was a bit nervous to try it on since I had not worn it in 16 months. I know I have lost 18 pounds but I don't know what I weighed when I wore it. Well... I tried it on and it fit comfortably.
We went to the dinner auction and I was dressed nicely (even shaved my legs). Hair and nails were looking good (even though I did them myself) and I had a crocheted wrap that I made myself (it just happen to match the dress and I could use it to cover any cleavage that tried to pop out. We had a good time but when I looked in the mirror I just kept seeing this stuffed whale. My face felt fat. My arms felt fat. My tummy for sure felt fat.
I don't know why. I had not over eaten. Slowly chewing and enjoying the meal. I had 3 glasses of water and 3 glasses of wine.
Maybe it was the wine. Maybe that is where the Negative Nelly was coming from. I am not usually a wine drinker. If I have a glass a month that is a lot. I don't like these feelings of ugliness. I wish they would go away.
PS: The feeling stupid part is because hubby and I fought on the way home about really really stupid stuff (like me putting his empty glass in the dishwasher because I thought it was helpful and he was mad because he was going to use it again) and when we fight I feel like a complete idiot.
-18 pounds since starting
+78 days
59 days to Graduation, 149 days to 21st birthday and 287 to Leah's birthday
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