I wanted to give a little background information about myself. In 2004 (age 34) I had a bit of a health scare and decided it was time to lose some weight. I also took a vacation with my family and I was the one taking pictures and not participating. I did not want my kids to be embarressed by my weight. They are embaressed by me all the time but that is a different story.
I started out at 250 (size 24) and went down to 180 (size 14) in a year. Low carb eating agreed with me and it was fairly easy to lose. In 2005 I had 6 breast surgeries (the last 2 was the removal and reconstruction) and was diagnosed with Chronic Infection. No Cancer but it was/is emotional for me. I started a new job in January 2006 and being in my new skin was emotionally hard for me. Gaining a few pounds here and there was easy and I liked hiding behind the bigger me. I wanted people to like me for me and not what I looked like. I know it sounds crazy but it was a huge battle within me. I had discussions in my head that went something like 'he is checking out your legs and they look good. I like that. Why am I an object and not a person'. These back and forth thoughts in my head was exhausting so it was easier to gain a few pounds.
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